At the age of 8 I started to feel God's call on my life. A lady in our church led me in the "sinner's prayer" and the whole time I was repeating after her I knew that something wasn't right. That something was that I wasn't completely ready to follow Christ with my whole heart.
From the age of 8 to 13 I knew I wasn't a believer. It was my seventh grade year when I was fully aware of the fact it was time to give my life to Christ. God used music to help draw me to him, something he continues to do.
My parents were very strict on music I could listen to, and Michael W. Smith was one of the few "Contemporary Christian" artists available (even though they still thought he was a rebel). So, I listened to his albums A LOT. God used one of his songs to speak clearly to me and really convict me of the change needed to be made. I had the privilege of being in a Christian school and on March 1st, 1990, my principal, Mr. Phelps, helped me confirm what I knew needed to be done - confess I wasn't a believer and commit myself to Christ!
21 years has flown by and God has changed, refined, and molded me over and over. Just when I think I'm getting close to being a woman after God's heart I realize how far I am from being there. What I've learned about my salvation and my relationship with God in the last 5 years is... GRACE. He gives me so much grace to make it through the day and I have to turn around and give grace to everyone around me.
I've learned more than ever how important it is to have scripture embedded in my brain and heart to back up the things I say I believe, to be ready to always give an answer for my faith! I really look forward to the day my boys begin to hear God's calling on their heart, work through it with them by training and reading God's Word, and watching the Holy Spirit draw them!
Happy Birthday to Me! 21 sounds much better than 34. Here's the song God used to draw me to Him!
Michael W. Smith
I Am Sure
|Looking at the future |
Who can tell you what is going on
It seems we have become the generation
Of wars and bombs
And the heart grows weak
And the fear grows strong
That the day may come and it may not be very long
And you want to run
But you don't know where
So where do you go
And I tell you
I am sure there will be a day
But it will not be like the nations say
The Lord will come when this life is through
And His deep desire is to be with you
Hearts will fly when the new world starts
And joy will rise like the morning star
God will meet every cry of the heart
And it's my prayer
I want you to be there
I like to think about the new creation
Things that God will do
So every now and then I stop and close my eyes
I enjoy the view
And the heart grows strong
And the fear grows weak
And I cannot wait for the new world to come to me
And while I dream
Oh, I pray for you
'Cause He wants you to go
And I tell you